Hoping this is how answering prompts work, but it bothers me to get triggered. They can be tiny but incessant and drag out for days until the addict wins, and its day zero again.
It’s not for lack of trying though. I am aware of the triggers. I send up to the Higher Power. My next attempts are breathing, mindfulness of present feeling/emotions. It’s hard, and the triggers make me sad – but I just keep getting back up and going again.
But withdrawals versus where I was in active addiction is a world of difference. Progress not perfection, and I’m proud of the progress.
Have an addiction or behaviour you can’t shake, that’s bearing you down, getting worse with no sense of relief? Therapy is one option – I have a counsellor booked. But I also go to 12 Step (y’know, AA-inspired fellowships), and as much as I’m stumbling in the face of Step 4, so much has been lifted already.
T.M. Shannon 
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